Moving Away: T minus 5 or 15 weeks

Waiting to hear from the Shakespeare Theatre of New Jersey. I told them I needed $2,000 or I couldn't attend. We'll see how it turns out.

I have too many underdeveloped friendships. I need to make them deeper before I go, but where will I find the time? I care deeply about a lot of people.

In the past week I've noticed me getting more touchy-feely. I want to give people hugs... ALL THE TIME. I have a hard time living in the present.

Im technically in class right now, so I should be technically paying attention.

Moving Away: T minus 5 1/2 weeks... wait WHAT?

I'm currently in class and should not be writing this right now. He's talking about brothels... this is a theatre management class... O.o

I thought since I hadn't heard from the Shakespeare Theatre of New Jersey that I wasn't in. However, I just got an email today that they were "still very interested"...

This would mean I leave before May 30th, their Day One. I walk May 15th. OMG. This is so sudden, and so scary... Just one month and eleven days from now. Left. In Ohio.

Besides that, there are several people I care a lot about, one in particular that I'm gonna be heartbroken to leave here in OH. Such is the life of an actor, though... I should get used to it. I wish I could take him with me...

Moving Away: T minus 15 weeks

Love sucks, you know that? It's never easy, eventually ends in heartbreak, and is unavoidable because you end up having so much fun while you're in love. It's like a wave, getting bigger until it finally splashes on the shore. And with each relationship, each wave, you get a little more worn down... I can keep going with this analogy, too, but I already feel it stretching...

Rode to Squire's Castle today. Little highschoolers swarming all over the place. The way back wasmiserable, me and my friend got caught in the rain. Which turned into hail. On a motorcycle. It sucked.

Still haven't heard from the evil league of evil.

Going to bed a little early tonight. I have work tomorrow, but I'm dealing with some stuff I'd rather not broadcast on the world wide web. I hope things will be easier in Virginia. It's a new start, fresh, no baggage. There's too much here in Ohio. I'll be happy to flee to my haven in the valley.

Moving Away: T minus 15 weeks (ish)

So here I am, after a 15 hour workday as an extra on a commercial shoot, thinking about what's important in life, and to me.

My parents are the closest people in my life. They know more about me than 90% of parents know about their children. They hear about my heartbreaks and crushes and slightly inebriated escapades. I have always looked to them for advice and guidance, and when they worry too much I know I am loved. Because I share with them, I think they trust me, and what I have with them is very special. Perhaps being homeschooled had something to do with it, but I think a large part is the way they raised me to both respect my elders and question authority.

My heritage continues to play a larger part in my life and it's something I'd like to learn more about. Part of my senior project is simply an excuse to mine my mother's side of the family for information about my grandmother. I am proud of my family, on both sides. My father's side are hard workers. Conservatives (shudder!) but good people. They are the root of my Americana. My mother's side are the intellectuals and activists. I feel a deep need to grow closer to my Jewish heritage. People DIED rather than forsake what they were. In honor of them, I search out my traditions.

These two things I will always have. As I leave for school, I need to remember to count the many things I take with me that are unseen. Both of my parents are technologically literate. I will be able to keep in touch with them. I am a little worried that I will lose a little more of my culture. I'll need to find a synagogue when I get to Virginia. That might be the first place I look to form a more local support network.