Moving Away: T minus 9 weeks

Haha, tarot was spot on yesterday. There was the judging, and then the combination of King of Wands and seduction... I won't say more on that ;-)

Today's cards:

King of Wands. REALLY?

Seven of Swords: Design, wish, hope, also quarreling, a plan that may fail

Ten of Swords: AGAIN? Pain affliction tears etc...

Moving Away: T minus 9.5 weeks

Well, yesterday wasn't bad at all! I wasn't The Fool, though. There was lots of sitting and being patient but I'm happy with how everything turned out.

Hair competition today.

3 cards of the day:

Justice, reversed: ok

King of Wands: I wonder who it is...?

Page of Cups, reversed: Seduction?Deception?taste? hmmmm

Moving Away: T minus 9.5 weeks

Here's the daily tarot!

Three cards:

1. The Fool. hey, old friend.

2. Ten of swords. Ouch.

3. Nine of wands, reversed.

This is a BAD reading.

Pray for me today.

Moving Away: T minus 9.5 weeks

Gaaah WTF I'll be gone in the blink of an eye.

Currently meditating because "why does this shit always happen to us". You know, shit happens? Bad joke. Anyways, I cant stand true meditation, so I henna instead. Very calming I should do it more often.

Quotes I'm putting on myself:

certum vot pete finnem
Set a definite limit to your desire (Horace)

Aut viam inveniam aut faciam - I will either find a way or make one

Ipsa scientia potestas est - Knowledge itself is power. (Bacon)

candor dat viribus alas
Sincerity gives wings to strength

We'll see how these turn out I havent hennaed in ages. So I'm not putting them in obvious places shall we say.

Found a comment on an ancient post of mine. Replied belatedly.

Also have good friend the address to this site :-P *crosses fingers* He's the first since Jeff to know this address...

Moving Away: T minus 10 weeks

It's really hard to believe that I'm moving away in 10 weeks. It's going to fly by: my schedule is PACKED

Today:

Hang w/Cat

OddyFest

Shabbat Dinner

Saturday:

Return fencing gear

meet John for coffee

Justin's party

Go see Barbecuing Hamlet

Katie's party

Party at RAW

go home and take care of the dog

Sunday:

Meet Adam for breakfast

Work

Hessler Street Fair

Girls' night

Basically busy dawn to dusk.

Currently listening to awesome friend Punk Ass Katie's radio show, Blink Generation. She's cool. She's also the one who taught me not to judge people by appearance. With her crazy hair, hardcore attitude, tats, and piercings, you'd never think her to be an honors student going for her MFA in creative writing!

Waffling between cleaning and IMing. Whee!

Moving Away: T minus 10 weeks

Wow the weeks pass quickly.

Just doing a tarot reading that seems crazy accurate.

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Card 1. Sulfur/Expansion – The energies that are coming into my life

Knight of Wands

An exciting trip, and likely a long one to an exotic place. Likely a trip by motorcycle, car, bus or train.

Card 2. Mercury/Integration – The energies I need to balance and integrate

Eight of Swords: Reversed is the girl in high school eating alone because she imagines others don't like her (that she is surrounded by swords)...but this isn't true. She isolates and hobbles herself, but there is no censure from the outside, it's all her own doubts about herself, her own self-hatred and low-self-esteem. Other folk probably have no opinion about her, but she thinks they do, and these leave her unable to move.

Card 3. Salt/Contraction – The energies that are leaving my life

Two of Pentacles

Standing before the waves of an ocean, a fellow deftly juggles two pentacles. Is the meaning quite clear now? Yes, the instinctive knowledge of how to juggle finances, a check book, or jobs. As with the swords, you can't keep at it forever, but it is a good use to put your money or hard work to until your ship comes in. Which is what the background waves are all about - keep juggling, relief is on its way.

Card 4. Water/Dissolution – That which I need to let go of

Ten of Pentacles

This is the pinnacle of prosperity, material goods that last instead of being temporary; this is a family home bought and paid for, a business you can pass onto your children. The Querent might find themselves the lucky recipients of a trust fund or lottery money big enough to last a lifetime. It may not be a huge lump sum, but it is something that can be relied on for a good, long while, or something to be passed on to the children, a family inheritance, or just a special, valuable item to pass on.

Card 5. Center – The part of myself or my life that remains unchanged

THE FOOL

With all his worldly possessions in one small pack, the Fool travels he knows not where. So filled with visions and daydreams is he, that he doesn't see the cliff he is likely to fall over. At his heel, a small dog harries him (or tries to warn him of a possible mis-step).

Basic Tarot Meaning

At #0, the Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he needs to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasizing and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

Thirteen's Observations

In the Tarot, cards like The Magician or The Hermit can often stand for the Querent or for someone in the Querent's life. The Fool, however, almost always stands for the Querent alone, no one else. In standing for the Querent, the Fool represents a time of newness, a time when life has been "re-started" as it were. The person feels that they are back at zero, whether that be in romantic affairs, or career, at their job or intellectual pursuits. Far from being sad or frustrating, the Querent feels remarkably *free*, light hearted and refreshed, as if being given a second chance. They feel young and energized.

In addition, they likely have no idea where they're going or what they're going to do. But that doesn't matter. For the Fool, the most important thing is to just go out and enjoy the world. To see what there is to see and delight in all of it.

Unfortunately, in this childlike state the person is likely to be overly optimistic or naive. A Fool can be a Fool. This is the card likely to turn up when a Querent is thinking of investing his money in a new, "sure fire" business. Or when the Querent is sure that it's "love this time!" Like the Fool, they're so busy daydreaming of what might be that they're ignoring what is. They're about to fall right off a cliff. It's time for them to listen to that watchful little dog, which might be a concerned friend, a wise tarot reader, or just their instincts.

As a card, the Fool ultimately stands for a new start. When it turns up the Querent might be about to make a move, not just to a new home, but new job, new life. There's more than just change, renewal, and a brand new beginning in the Fool, there's also movement, a fresh, exciting new time.

Card 6. Aquarius/Air – What I need to know about these changes

Four of Swords

Upright, this is a card of rest, recuperation or meditation - a retreat to regain health and mental sharpness. Reverse this and the man falls off his pallet. Clearly, the reversed card indicates that there is no rest, no retreat and no recuperation. The querent may want or need it, but they are not going to get it.

Card 7. Scorpio/Water – My emotional response to these changes

King of Pentacles

The King of Pentacles is the hard-working, earthy man who motivates with common sense and a hands-on attitude. He shows people how to build that fence, he offers a fair wage and health benefits for workers, he comes up with a practical business plan that everyone can understand and get behind. There are no risks with this King, his fire is banked in the hearth and burning steadily; he is also a wise environmentalist, knowing just how many trees to cut down and plant so that there will always be more for the future. If he says it will work, it will work. And if he says he'll find the people to do the job, he'll find them, reliable, good people that can be trusted. People trust and follow him because he offers no surprises, nothing new or strange or chancy--and he wants to get the job done and done well.

The negatives of the King of Pentacles come clear in his reversal: here is a man who won't take chances, who is too conservative and won't hear of making any changes in the way things are done. "If it's not broke, don't fix it," his is motto, and stubbornly so. In his negative mode he's likely to be a miser, unable to comprehend why prices have gone up, or why he must pay a higher wage. He might well cheat his workers, cut corners, even, at his very worse, embezzle from the company. He expects the best but isn't above letting those who serve him have the worst.

The King of Pentacles represents the motivation of the practical, of hard work and reliability, of conservative methods. Reverse this and we see a blocking of these - people who think they know better do unpractical things, take risks that are foolish, go with wild, new ideas that haven't been tested rather than reliable old methods. Outsiders with their own agenda may waste resources rather than make good use of them (like clear cutting a forest). Internally, a reversed King of Pentacles may be ignoring his own good sense, taking gambles and risks, or keeping to a method that no longer works because he's too stubborn to change.

Card 8. Taurus/Earth – Where I can find stability and practical support

Page of Swords

You can't shut up this kid. "Why? Why? Why?" he/she's always asking. And even more alarming, anything they hear, they'll repeat, just blurt it out in front of people. They'll go up to Aunt Hazel and say, "Are you carrying a baby? Mommy says it looks like you are...." On the positive side, this kid could be quite a brain, good at puzzles, quick to learn. And they already know how to use the computer better than you do. Likeable, but also the most aggravating of kids because whatever you tell them to do, they'll argue about it. You have to watch that they don't become "know-it-alls" or tattletales.

Card 9. Leo/Fire – What actions I can take to make the best of these changes

Ten of Wands

Upright, this is a card about taking on too many burdens. It is the end result of putting out all your energy into projects - they multiply and you find yourself carrying the entire load. Here's the important thing, however, these burdens were brought about by good fortune, by doing the right thing. The querent built up a good and honest business (for example) and now it puts too many demands on his time - but he did right.

Reversed, therefore is a person trying to shirk his responsibilities. This is the dad who promises his kids he'll do all kinds of things for them and never does; the guy at work who volunteers for everything, then passes the jobs onto others to do - or just doesn't do them, leaving a mess for everyone else to clean up. This is a person who doesn't carry their load, they toss it away, neglect it, put it on someone else's back.

Moving Away: T minus 11 weeks

What a ride it's been.

I just finished my undergraduate education yesterday. In MC 302. I started in MC 301. Irony, anyone?

I don't remember the last few days so I cant verify the tarot. But I will take my daily reading now! I'm switching to a five-card spread, it seems more understandable.

1. What I should do today.
Queen of Wands. Loving, faithful woman. Symbols of strength, life. So... be a good woman?

2. What I shouldn't do today.

King of Pentacles (reversed). "Vice, weakness, ugliness..." etc. So don't be a bad person. Ok, clear so far.

3. The Unexpected

Four of cups. card of blended pleasure. Weariness, disgust, aversion. Hmm.

4. How can I be happy today?

The Hanged Man. Wisdom, circumspection, discernment, trials, sacrifice, intuition, divination, prophesy.

5. Spiritual Advice

The World. Really? That's not so much advice as... well, it means, assured success, travel, voyage, etc.

It's my first day as a free woman. And I don't know what to do with myself! Granted, I'm only free till 3...

Moving Away: T minus 12 weeks

So to review yesterday's tarot: yeah, it was a pretty sucky reading. Looking at the reading, I don't see anything there.... so, today's!

Daily Reading:

1. What I can expect today The Ace of Swords. Triumph. sweet. or, great prosperity or great misery. o.
2. What will be totally unxpected Strength, reversed. hmm. abuse of power or weakness.
3. What will fulfill me personally King of pentacles. Valor, business or intellectual aptitude. or, a dark man, master, professor.
4. What awaits me financially Four of cups. Weariness, aversion, or blended pleasure.
5. What awaits me emotionally Ten of cups. Score! Contentment, repose of the entire heart.
6. What awaits me in my occupation/at work Three of pentacles, reversed. Mediocrity in work. Ha. Can you say senioritis?
7. How my health is The moon, reversed. Instability, silence, inconstancy.

Stressed over Ti. Again. Why am I always stressed? A friend suggested I try a little pot. Am I so uptight?

I mean, it's not like it's FINALS WEEK or anything!!! Or I have a play that goes up in a week!!

Moving Away: T minus 12 weeks

Well, I'm not going to New Jersey. Too expensive and they won't help.

But I did get a tarot deck, as a prop for my play.

Daily Reading:

1. What I can expect today Temperance. Ok, so that's not too bad.
2. What will be totally unxpected The Hierophant, reversed. Hmmm. Setbacks?
3. What will fulfill me personally Seven of cups, reversed. Desire and will?
4. What awaits me financially Three of cups, reversed. Achievement and end. uh-oh.
5. What awaits me emotionally The Tower. Interesting...
6. What awaits me in my occupation/at work The Star, reversed. Giving up hope? Nooo!
7. How my health is The Ace of Pentacles, reversed. Bad intelligence? hmmm.

I saw Jeff yesterday for the first time in ages. It's funny how differently I see them than in the past. I mean, the total absence of all romantic feeling makes me wonder how I ever felt that way in the first place. But he is a dear friend, and I was glad to see him. I stayed up and watched the Cavs game with Matt, that was fun. He threw socks at the TV.

One more week of class, one more week of finals. Class Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, watch the shows on Friday, perform Saturday, finals on Tuesday, commencement Saturday. So I need to go to CSU about 8 more times. EVER. YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!