Wednesday

Today started off on the wrong foot. I weighed in and realized I lost weight, but somehow this made me want to put off breakfast. WRONG MOVE. Both I and my father are... uhhh... nasty? when we haven't eaten. My clothes got fried in the drier. My fault. What? No, now it was Mom's fault. *shouting* "Why did you put the towels on high? You never put the towels on high!" Uhh, maybe I should have checked the dial before I started my load...

My things got better at school. My teacher gave me a thank-you card with a gift certificate to Borders for going to another class of hers and speaking about homeschooling. Hey, attention. I couldn't have volunteered faster. But the thank-you really made my day better. Then I stopped by Springfest... kinda boring. Free food, though. Then I went to the gym and did the elliptical for half an hour, ran a mile, and lifted weights. Burned off a lot of those hot dog calories.

On Friday a NY theater director is coming to speak about the acting profession. I almost don't want to go. I don't want to hear it. I know acting is a tough gig. It seems that certain people have this attitude that if you're not willing to strip at the drop of a hat, or wave your arms in some weird interpretation of a mailbox, you won't make it. I still have my morals. I may wave my arms around, but I'll never strip. Some people have this attitude that you have to be willing to do anything anytime. I just don't believe it. Even if I have to waitress the rest of my life, I'm gonna keep my values. But I will act. Acting is NOT "all about sex and violence" (quoting directly--they believe it). There are very meaningful roles that don't require selling oneself. Look at the lead woman in Blood Diamond. Look at 99% of commercials. Look a family TV, and kid's shows. Look at 99% of supporting characters! That's one thing I don't think my teacher has realized yet. She kinda made it clear that I wasn't going to get any big parts unless I slaved away as an usher and painter etc. But I want character roles! Not leads. Leads are nice, but there's a lot less freedom you can take with the character. Because you're not on screen or on stage all the time, I think you can be quirkier. Plus the director doesn't care as much, so you can have more of your own interpretation. Not that they don't care, but how the lead is behaving is usually more important to the story, therefore the production.

I'm ranting. I apologize. You get a Brownie point for reading.

Tomorrow I wake up early (5am), go to my allergist, then off to work. Gotta make that money!